I'm happy but I'm also scared to death

I erased all i had written.
It's better off this way.
Remind me patience is good. Good things will happen.
If i really think We belong to each other, everything will be fine. So i don't need to panic. That's just impatience and highmaintenance i've got to get rid off. I love him to death, this might sound stupid but i think he also loves me to death. I believe in it. It just pains me that i'm losing time i could spend happily next to that man. It just pains me i'm not beside him holding his hand and telling him, everything is gonna be okay, i'll always be here. I need him. I miss him.